this is what i realized today. i felt relieved that i haven’t told my plans to my new close friend. you know why i felt relieved? because she left me. and if i told her any of my deep secrets, i know definitely my plans won’t follow through. and she would tell others to especially ones who are close to her. oh sorry did i say new? i meant former.
well, she thought i would run after her. I DEFINITELY WON’T. i mean, why should i? she left me for dead. didn’t show up at meetups. didn’t text me like she usually does. then, she said sorry. i was hesitant to take her back because of what she did. but eventually i did. of course, i was still healing from what she has done to me. and then just a few days after, she acted differently again. instead of calling me our usual pet names, she called me by my first name. and there, i knew it. i felt it. i said to myself “here we go again”.
how did i know something was up? well, that was the exact tactic her best friend used to me. her best friend was my former lover. but after we were through, we became close friends. and there i thought to myself, what did i expect? they’re best friends for years. they have similarities. making it clear, i wasn’t planning on anything. i was just being friendly. and then she knew me and we became close friends. she did exactly what her best did to me. left me for dead.
so here, now. i am saying to myself, i won’t trust new friends that quickly. instead, stick to my “already” close friends where time has tested our fate and stayed with me through my best, worst and even at my normal days. happiness is always there. ignore those bad vibes, and those who try to destroy the good.
anyhow, this is farewell. i hope she won’t try for a comeback because i definitely won’t take her back. best wishes to her, her best friend and everyone involved. may you all rest in peace? LOL just kidding ^_____^
